normal normal**simple simple life~~

Nothing to say atcually, cuz i oledy more than 1 week din wite blog...so i dunoe wanna start from where!! Hahahaha...Juz can say dis few day i damn busy..busy lepak v my all dearest fren!! DRINK TEA!! DRINK TEA!!! and aso DRINK TEA!!! So terrible rite...i noe ei~~No choice, fren too many...heehee^^but so happy d!! Wanna keep it all money ady...cnt use anymore..planning go for a trip!! And go shop shop with my lao po, laima n babe++++...so many shopping central got offer, cnt wait for buy shirt joorhx..champ~~


FRIEND'S SECRET

My heart are so hard now!!! so many secret keep inside my heart, n i noe too many thing!!! wat should i surpost to do now...and who wanna be my listener...huh??? FAN FAN FAN!!!

Dunoe y dis year, i so sui gerhx...always gv other ppl "wu hui" me~hey, i juz a normal n simple gals leh...dun think til me so pro okie!!! Although we juz noe each other, but u should noe who i love atcually, rite...Fine, i juz can say...me reli damn "BLACK" d~~
Tmr i have a test worhx...seem like my classmate are no 1 is studying atcually...is include me...haha!! so lazy gerhx, and aso no mood wanna study tat...GODSSS,!! still like tat, i noe wat my result jorhx...

*A simply life on today*

Erm...yesterday chat v a old classmate...he tol me about his thing! He say he are getting crazy becuz of the gal...the gal are so crazy n aso non stop hurt herself to asking him bec to her side!!! I jz wanna say, if u reli love him, dun try to hurt urself, it jz will let the boy hate u so much, if u reli love him, y do u nt try to let him go...1 day they will now..u are the 1 who treat him so gud...although he is not beside u any more..bt he still remember you!! Jz try to leave a gud memories 4 each other!!.

And jz now i receive a bad news~ My fren, she are break v her boy...although she every day tell me she not care about it...Because they are nt match! And i are not the 1 who calling her break v him...cuz i tot she dun mind it~Bt until jz now, me jz noe..she are crying...jz becuz of him saying break v her! And i was crazy becuz of this, i dunoe wanna comment of it...my hurt are are telling me a word "sad".. sad are jz becuz i feeling sorry to her, i cnt every day calling her break v him~ i jz can say sory to her~!!! i hv nothing to do at all!!!! By the way, i jz wan u to noe, i will always beside u if u reli need me... dun jz hide inside the heart...and dun let any1 noe...dun try to do tat~okie
hey~my frn~i noe u noe i saying who!!!
remember, dun think too much~
jz wanna remember u break v him, u are the winner...
although is he say break, bt u are not the loser, u win tat u hv us...
and he jz can find the melay gal!!! so proud!!!!

And i was always leave in a lie life!!!! no 1 will noe y~cuz dis is secreat in my mind^^
hope everyone will always be happy =) n u get well so yarhx~

happy~^^

erm, jz nw went to matrix find my fren to help my babe print out the assignment...he treat me so gud, din take fee from me...thx alot^^, my dearest fren kiat kiat~
after tat i call my dear yoshiko, asking her wanna come out nt~bt hor...she din answer my call, den i call her's house phone...finally her mum answer tat call...den yoshiko say call me go fetch my dear rineii out 1st, den she go "bathful"bathful"sin~haha...den i go to my dear rineii house, she came out and wearing a mini single n a short pant...haha...so lang bei gerh face!! den after 2 minute she went out again, call me wait her...she go change her shirt...do u noe how many minute my dear wanna use to change her clothe~haha^^ no 1 will noe 5 minute+++++++++....so pro rite~
After tat we go to fetch bec yoshiko, den go refil the petrol..den we get a call from kw~stupid he, din reply my call, nvm...jz nw when fetch rineii tat time, at his house outside..."hon" him so many time aso din out...den me and rineii dwn choi him jorh~haha,finally he msg bec!!! den call us go serendah fetch him...my brain are telling me...going or nt going tat time, my dearest yoshiko say :"go go go!!!! i help u pay the petrol fee." atcally she wanna go meet her boy boy "yip wing" gerhx~haha!! we go til kw grandma's house, he tol us he wanna come bec here 4 his dinner...=="we all zd lor~waste our time, atcually we can eat ice-cream gerhx~haha^^bt nvm lar...i saw a cute gal jz nw...so enjoy to play v her~she is kw "daugther"heehee...is atcually...we at his grandma's house stay about 1 hour++ den we are planning go kepong tonite..bt no car...my car, i scared my parent wanna use it...so not comfirm yet, bt yohiko hv class tmr, she hv to go bec tonite~so hv to fetch her bec to setapak, bt dunoe whether we enuf time nt~sad...den yoshiko get a call from her's mum...den she so angry d say...okie okie...fine!! i go bec nw!!! den we go bec...feel so sorry 4 yoshiko, cuz i din bring her go see her boy boy"yip wing"...sorry my dear~

This is all my "day"on today^^

boring saturday~

wuu~dis few day at home so borring gerhx!!! nothing to do tim...dis few time i sms u, u aso din reply, i think u dowan choi me ady isit!! em...i understand, i wont find u if u din find me, i wont call u out if they din call me date u...i dwn disturd let u think me so fan~ dis is my answer!! i no choice, i nth to do~so wat can i do, is dis oni!! and once is, about my 1 best fren, i dunoe whether she will look at my blog nt...bt she din see also nvm gerhx...nt important also, important is all my dearest fren can understanding me...i'm nt tat kind of gal...yea!!
Although dis few day, i feel so down, bt me aso always smile v others!! cuz i dwn my fren see me sad~Den no mood talk to me...
Bt nw i'm confusing~ cuz all my fren, dear, laima and babe birthday cuming soon~wat i can buy 4 them a special present 4 them leh~ i dwn lai ma n babe celebrate their birthday...i wanna see them so happy happy, always 38 v me gerhx fren... lai ma...i'm thinking...babe, think jorhx... i need to borrow k****n 4 1 nite...4 celebrate v my babe...muahahaha!!! babe, u noe tat? haha^^

我的决定

我不管了!!!!! 我的决定,就是这个..


朋友
既然,你觉得我是这样的人
那就随便你,反正...
我也懒的和你解释...

又爱又恨!!!

在某人的心理~我永远只是...最后一位...连她打电话来,你都不让我出声,你到底怕什么?怕她吃醋吗...不是没有在一起吗!!那你怕什么...我不明白!!!我不明白为什么我宁愿选择去爱,都不愿选择被爱!!我真的很贱,超贱...每个人都说我笨...但他们从没想过,为什么我会那么的倔强,那么的死心塌地...全只是因为,我这得非常爱他...我发理解的爱~全世界除了我,没有人会了解我现在的心情!!!就连"你"都不会懂~

失败~

全都被我搞扎了~傻婆~~
讨厌...讨厌!!!!
希望一切,能在这一刻忘记全部刚才所发生的事....
在和我的dear yoshiko 讲电话, 再谈谈我们的心事~~~
原来我们都有共同的问题, 真的是...伤心T.T..
~~~~~~~~~~聊电话中~~~~~~~~~~`
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烦啊~!!!!!!
是时候睡觉luu~~~
晚安,希望明天早上起来,一切....都好...

啊!!!!被你[放飞机]了~

讨厌!!你放我飞机...你到底去了哪里啊?信息也不传一封让我知道你到底来不来!!王八蛋...你知道我在等你吗~~你该不会,帮过头,忘了吧...你找我的时候,你就知道~hng!!!!
emmm...今天过着"潮湿"的一天,我的 auntie来visit我了~!!现在好痛哦...也很懒散...昨天没睡好,一整晚都在床上转来转去,好辛苦哦~不过刚才再等某人的时候...不知不觉,我睡着了...虽然,有点热!!!可是我还是睡得着,看来,我怎的好累哦~还有两天才开学...闷死了!!!下个月考试,我应该要开始好好读书了~

隐瞒一切,还是把话说清楚~

到我觉得我们真的有希望时,我真的很开心!!可是,不知是不是天意作弄人,让我看见一些,我也不知道,我应不应在这个时候看见的xx~我选择了相信你...你也说你不会骗我!!可是到最后,你还是骗了...我现在也只能相信我眼前的一切...我真的,[无话可说], 也不知道现在我要做什么? 让我今天把枕头弄高,好好的思考,明天...我要怎样面对你,希望....你这次,真的可以对我说实话,好吗?我爱你,可是...能不能不要把我对你的爱,当成是一种利用...或许你不是!!可是,你给我的感觉"是"...xxx, 我还是会相信你的,只要你真的对我坦白...好吗?我等你....请你不要让我失望...隐藏在心里的话,我只能在这里说~xxx,你感觉到了吗?明天,我将会是第一次,在你面前说这些,也是最后一次,让你看见...我为你留下的眼泪!!!!!
[勇气]
我需要你~~
找我好吗?
让我一次爱个够!!
也让我一次[失去所有]
老天,不要在玩弄我了好吗?
我很爱他,他也对我有感觉[或许是吧]
可是为什么,偏偏在我们开始进展的时候..
你却选择,在这个时候,让我看见我不应该看到的东西...
够了~明天...一次解决到完...
我还是她~你选谁!!!

朋友~我回来啦!!!!!

回来了,怎么还是觉得很闷呢?还是很孤独....很寂寞...怎么办???算了吧....我也必须习惯没有你的生活,可是你却早已习惯没有我的生活...昨天喝醉了,突然想到一件事,一个人可以对你说,我很爱你,不能没有你,可是,也可以在一瞬间对你说...我对你没有感觉了...你能体会得到,有多伤人吗!!!! 虽然都分了两个月...有时还会想起你,就在我觉得孤单,寂寞的时候...想找你聊天,可是很怕打扰你...最近的心情很复杂,连自己都不知道该如何是好...只好选择一起啊随缘...只是唯一的办法,对我而言...朋友们都去上课了,我还没...haiz...我只能说,我还是一个人,孤零零的,没人理会....今天的感受,还有很多...可是...无法形容....

my frd will hate me dis time, and i was jealous...do u all noe~

Although, i try 2 love others ppl, bt aso cnt forget u...i dunoe y? sum body can tell me y? and u all noe hw deep is my love...dnt jz say wan me try 2 gv up, u not me!! u dunoe wat tat feeling..."wtf" u say v me...okie fine...i accept...jz scould me wat u all wanna scould me.... jealous @!!!!!!@#$%#$%*% , wat to do...nth 2 do...u all do like dis, although u all normal chat or joking, bt me aso jealous... u all pretty den me, i noe...so i no choice...and aso u all is my best frd...lagi nth 2 say lor...jz can say, in front of u all, i jz seem like nth v u all gua...membe...jz can say....all UR FAULT!!!! [wish wont go] (i love you) muakxx...sad again ....and again....!!!!! bull shit!!!!

突然很想恋爱～

突然很想要恋爱～最近都觉得很没有安全感，也觉得很孤独～有追求者，可是偏偏心里确只有那一个爱人！！！现在好想念他....朋友们，我也非常的想念你们，不知你们有没有想念我叻？？？哈哈...在这里好闷噢～虽然时间排得满满的，可是总觉得很无聊，很空虚...到底我是怎么了...
觉得自己变好多噢，是因为你吗？是因为你，我才会变的这个样子吗...或许是吧～就连我自己也不知道！！！随便好啦...反正，我变的怎么样，对你也无所谓...快点到9号吧，要回去了，朋友们都很想念我，而我也很想念他们，还有.....你·······

miss everyone..^^

hei~nw at port dikson ,nw feel like miss many ppl o...miss lao po, miss babe, miss yaya, miss rineii and many many many o...and aso "c" and most is"w".!!!!!!

my frd rineii and yaya wanna leave rwg ady, i din go bec on tat time, i cnt say bye bye v them, so pity d!!!!! hope they wont mind tat, i wait u 2 cum bec on friday, we go yam cha together...haha^^ call our new driver "nigel" or old driver " ah mun" aso can...haha...

lao po, 2day i saw a japenese guy, omg!!! so handsome d...i din chat v him, bt i got serve him, his so funny d...so white...haiz, din get him phone num leh...so stupid d...until nw me aso nt yet get see ah yan leh!!! so hate d...so hope to see him there, bt he din cum~~~~~and 1 most important d is i reali so miss u d, bt u ....haiz....watever lar...hope all my frd will happy always...enjoy our single life...find 1 on collage narh...haha

^^everything will be alrite...my dear...

hai hai~at Port Dikson nw...my grandmother's house...after membe wanna work on my auntie restaurant leh!!! haha^^...bt nw so boring d...nth 2 do at here...jz finish play mahjoong v grandma and grandpa..i din lose leh...still win, so lucky on 2day d... i feel sorry 2 my ns's frd...cuz ours genting trip's pic all get lose ady...atcually not my fault, is my brother "silap tekan" den...."habis"!!! sorry...bt my frd say can try to check on the camara memory card there, see still got or not worh...i'll try itd... and nw, i am miss somebody...do u all noe who is tat.,..haha^^ me so so so so miss him o...no dare to sms him leh...omg!!! lao po, dunoe i at here can meet ah yan or not leh...nw holidat\y worh...hope i can meet him lar...long time no c ady...abit shy tim...haha... may 17, i'll start my collage life...oh no...abit scared neh!!!bt nvm lor...i hv babe acc me mar...bt dunoe she register ady or nt leh!!! if she din register i wanna kill him ady....

"朋友"

难道,你不打算和我做朋友了吗????对我不理不睬是你最好的选择吗?可是,我想你做我最好的朋友,难道不行吗?就成为我的好朋友嘛...不要这样好不好....讨厌死了!!!!哈哈^^....等你最好的答案...最了解我,最明白我,的你~做我的好朋友...好不好....wait ur great answer...my dear!!!! muack~

加油~~~shenny!!!!

朋友都说的对!!!我必须把他忘了...从新我的生活!!!我是可以的!!!单身也不错啊..可以和朋友玩的不亦乐乎,不需要在乎另一半的感受....可是我还是要对你说:对不起,我要请你搬出去咯,因为我要让新的住客搬进来了...请你搬到"她"的心里吧...dear yaya, 我不会再让你看见伤心的我,我会加油的!!!...dear simni,你说得对,我是斗不过他们的!!!所以,ply gal,不是我最好的选择...自己,才是最好的选择...还有这句话想要对老婆说:老婆,他已经走了,我们就把他们当回忆吧....也希望你能请他搬走!!! 朋友们,我们一起朝向collage吧,寻找新的住客吧...dear rineii,问问你...他搬走了吗????

wat can i do now!!!!!!

我的"心"好痛....怎么办!!!为了要麻痹自己...我决定怎么做!!!就是要你们骂我,打我... 让我可以麻痹自己...让我可以痛痛快快的哭出来... 所有的一切,我都自己吭... 没有人愿意听我诉苦... 也不像打扰朋友,不想勉强他们听我说一大堆的"废"话!!! 朋友们,我很反常对不对... 为了不再想他 我会做使尽一切来忘记他... i'll do sumthing!!! is normally i won't do tat!!! all my fren...pls forgv me...lao po, i reali will becum tat kind of gal!!!

conclution~

答案出来啦~你还是选择了和他们去~
在你的心里...他们还是比较重要...
而在我的心里,你比任何人都重要!!
我不停的督促自己"我们已经分手了"
不要再对你有所期望,可是我就是办不到...!!!!!
我的改变为了你...而你的改变....却不是为了我...T_T
两年多的感情,你说放就放...还可以装着一脸不在乎的样子!!!!
到底你是怎么办到的啊~
你对我许下很多承诺,可是如今.....什么都没了~
我还在这!!!!我还在等!!!!等你有一天回头看我...
想让你知道"我还爱着你"

~down~

昨天,很不开心...因为听到babe说要和"他"一起去genting... 我们都很不放心,因为逼近babe和他不是认识了很久..真的很危险的!!! 我们费尽心思和babe说了很多"道理", 可是到最后babe还是选择和他一起去...haiz,算了吧... 在babe的眼里,"他"就是好人... 另外呢~是关于我和他~ 希望你会和我们一起去genting...可是你到现在还在考虑~ 你难道不知道明天早上我们就要去了吗? 听到你说可能不去了,心里有种很不好受的感觉... 虽然自己心里其实早已知道你不会去...